Its been a minute!How have you all been?I have been thinking about all the chaos of life and how much we have to depend on ourselves if we have to make it out sane on the other side of life.How much we have to sacrifice to meet our destinies and to become what we are meant to be.So many times we entrust our well being to people we think will hold tight our dreams and safety.People we count on to take a grenade for us,but in reality,the human mind is programmed to a self reflex that can snap anytime. This leaves you with only you to safe guard you.You are in charge of your own safety.You are in charge of your dreams,and until we realise that we are not safe in the hands of whoever we think has our best interests safe and guarded,then we will always sabotage our destinies and purpose in this world. There is a safe for you in you,a space where you can let go all your fears and breathe out all the toxicity.Everyone is chasing vanity and everyone is trying to live up to their po...
"Its not that I do not want to be happy.Its a despite how hard I try,I can't bring myself to be happy.I feel suffocated,ashamed,disappointed,embarassed,disillusioned.Why do I have to feel this way? I have great people in my life,yet all I ever see is sadness and gray.Its is like there is a burden on me,pulling me down,no matter how much I try to scream,it chokes the life in me. No matter how much I try,I cant bring myself to care about anything.Not him,not her and never me.Living has become this constant nighmare..Its not fair!!Society will tell me to try yoga,go for a walk,listen to meditation.I tell them that this cannot be solved by meditation,its a disease that has gone too deep into my soul.I can't get it out!!I just can't.Every time I try to explain,I am met with blind hesitation. People ask "Why are you always so sad?" I tell them I don't know.I don't know!!What I do know is that I wake up every morning feeling like shit and that has become ...