"Its not that I do not want to be happy.Its a despite how hard I try,I can't bring myself to be happy.I feel suffocated,ashamed,disappointed,embarassed,disillusioned.Why do I have to feel this way? I have great people in my life,yet all I ever see is sadness and gray.Its is like there is a burden on me,pulling me down,no matter how much I try to scream,it chokes the life in me. No matter how much I try,I cant bring myself to care about anything.Not him,not her and never me.Living has become this constant nighmare..Its not fair!!Society will tell me to try yoga,go for a walk,listen to meditation.I tell them that this cannot be solved by meditation,its a disease that has gone too deep into my soul.I can't get it out!!I just can't.Every time I try to explain,I am met with blind hesitation. People ask "Why are you always so sad?" I tell them I don't know.I don't know!!What I do know is that I wake up every morning feeling like shit and that has become ...